Troubleshooting
Have you tried turning it off and turning it back on again?
I backed off from the blog and the music, and really everything, for a few weeks.
I went on vacation. I unplugged. And I am feeling better. If you haven’t heard from me, I'm not ignoring you; I'm trying to retune into myself, because, boy, has it been loud.
I am between the schools of thought of shameless self-promotion on the internet and the “look at me! No, don’t look at me!” mindset. I am still trending toward the latter.
I learned a few things. I hate proclamations. I failed at posting my writing every day. I think I knew I would fail going into this, but let’s not get bogged down with the psychology of self-fulfilling prophecy.
Dear Reader, although I don’t need to tell you this, I was still writing every day; however, many of those thoughts are ones I don’t care to share on the internet, if you can understand.
I'm settling into Los Angeles more now. I rely less on my maps. My Chicago/Region road rage has mellowed. I am more patient. I am not in a rush. I have “spots” now; places I have discovered on my own, and when people come to visit, I can share with satisfaction, “Oh, I know a spot.”
I have a rockin’ haircut. I have not had bangs since I was maybe 6 years old, and I was fearful going for something so bold, but I have never felt more “me” than I do right now.
My body is getting so strong from running and yoga. Training for the marathon is going well. So is fundraising! I am nearly to my goal. I just completed a fundraiser open mic at Jeni’s in Los Feliz, and it was such a rewarding and joyful experience. Thank you to all the friends who showed up for us, and thank you to Jeni’s for accommodating us.
I have more open mics in the future and another Rockin’1000 at the end of the month. I feel grateful for all of the musicians I have met and jammed with so far.
I have to take some of the pressure off. I’ve done a lot in a short amount of time. I am still working on a lot and working against a lot. Progress is always better than zero. And that is what I am here for.
Here’s to putting myself out there more, and being silly, and looking silly, and laughing it off to do it again, and doing it better the next time.
Xx,
H
